Tuesday is my new official 'weigh-in' day. I lost 0.9 this week. I've lost a little over 3 pounds since I started the blog. I'm happy with that. The direction is what counts. And, like I said before..my aim is 0.5 pounds/week. So, I almost doubled that! Woo-hoo! Also, I've been doing pretty well with keeping up with my strength training. I like strenght training because it makes me feel both mentally and physcially stronger. Especially when I can feel the pain all day...its a nice little reminder of what I did for myself.

I'm struggling with emotions today. Some stuff happened that is completely outside of my control and it just made me feel bad. I'm letting what someone else thinks of me affect what I think of me. Which is ridiculous. I know that I'm a good person. I may not treat everyone the same, but I do treat everyone I meet with respect and acceptance. It bothers me that someone feels that I don't. Or at least sort of implied it. I don't know.

It also bothers me that this same someone says things to my husband without putting any thought at all into how it might affect him and his feelings. Friends should be more careful of each other. But, this person is currently drowning in self-pity so maybe its no surprise.

I need to let go of my imperfections. Can everyone like me? No. Can I like everyone? No. Do I want to like everyone...honestly, not really. Ahhh...the joys of growing up. May I only learn these lessons quicker than my mom has. Something like this would have her down for days, months, possibly even years. I don't want to be like that. I want to accept what is and move forward. Move forward with my knowledge that I have done well by these people...sometimes better than I've done by even my closest friends. Not out of love for them, but out of love for my husband. And, to be honest, they haven't done so well by us or him. So, why bother letting the negative emotions get me down? They're not worth the hurt.

muffin with pb - 330
oatmeal - 160
sandwich - 230
chips - 120
yogurt - 120
fruit/choc - 90
cheese -50
pepsi - 250
nuts - 150
Rice - 320
Salmon - 275
Green beans - 45
ice cream - 250

total - 2390