Monday, Monday

I haven’t written in a while. Things have been all over the place. Today I feel pretty good.

I realized something interesting about myself this weekend. A and I are trying to save money before we have a baby. I wanted to move the date to get pregnant up and A said he’d rather wait until we got our savings acct where we wanted it. He had a good point and so therefore I started working very hard on not spending unneeded money. Our first credit card statement since he said that is quite a bit less than they usually are!!!

So, here’s where the realization comes in. I’m able to not pull out that credit card and buy stuff because I know that something bigger lies at the end of the road…a baby! SOOOOO…why does that same logic not apply to eating? I’m a broken record, yet here I am. I guess since its my blog the point is that I can be the broken record.

Today is a good day. I’ve not felt tempted at all today. I’ve eaten my planned packed food. But last week in Florida was not good. Why? What is it about me that can’t take small steps to get what I want when it comes to weight loss?

I think about something going on at our house. We have had a massive pile of cardboard boxes building up in our garage that needed recycling. I mean, the pile was taller than me. I knew it needed to be broken down and recycled. But, the idea of going out there and spending several hours breaking down cardboard had no appeal to me whatsoever. It just seemed like such a daunting task. Well, I recently noticed that the pile was shrinking. I asked A about it and he said “yea, I’m breaking down a few boxes a week to get rid of them”. What a concept!!! I immediately drew the parallel to weight loss. This morning that pile didn’t even come to my waste. A little at a time he’s making a huge dent.

Once again, my husband, through the way he lives his life, is teaching me an important lesson. I sincerely hope that one day all of these lessons adds up to me actually losing some weight!

I had another little realization recently. Back in 2004, I think it was March, I met M for the first time in Michigan. We went together and had a facial done. We made an agreement at that time that we would get another one the next time we hit 299. That was 4yrs and 6 months ago!! And still I have not gotten that facial! That frustrates me. The highest I’ve been in that time is 338. But, for the majority of that time I have actually been under 330. Which means its only 30 pounds I need to lose to get that facial. 4.5 years, 30 pounds. It’s freaking doable! So, I’m working on my 30 before 30 list and there are two things on there. 1. Lose 30 pounds. 2. Get a facial!!! One will not come before the other. I really need to stop thinking of “I need to lose 150 pounds” and start just thinking about those 30 pounds. I can do that. I know I can.